Monday, January 14, 2013

7/7/12 (this was written then sorry for the late post)

Hey Guys! I'm so sorry. I know it has been a while but I'm back again :) Did you miss me? Probably not but that's fine. So, it's been about months since my last post but I'm still ecstatic about my against-the-odds acceptance. Since then not much has transpired. 

School has ended for me (which I am glad about). Even though I am glad I still get subtle pangs of nostalgia every now and again. It sort of scares me to know I won't be walking into high school with my four best friends beside me. I mean, I'm practically on my own. I have to go out without knowing a soul and make friends. I've never really been the type to talk to people first but I know that in a boarding school environment it is important to talk to other people.

I've been assigned my dorm and luckily I HAVE A SINGLE! Yay! I'm a really private person at times and I think it is better that way. I've begun speaking to many of the people in more dorm on Facebook & they are delightful. I'm so excited to be residing with them. I'm sure it'll be a blast.

Speaking of which, it is July so I thought it was time to begin friending students from my school. I've been boarder-line obsessive and completely meticulous about how I friend. The people who attend my school are so beautiful based on what I've seen on visits and on Facebook. I'm not sure whether that is a good or bad thing. I say July is a pretty good time to begin friending those who you will be attending school with. Friending them in the March-June months is a bit early in my opinion but I see no problem with it. I would have but I was so anxious about what they'd think of me if I did. Based on my results today (I've gained about 220 friends from my new school in the last two days). But personally, it might be better to wait until, maybe a few days before you get there or once you do.

Tip #3
Sometimes Stepping Out of your Comfort-Zone is a GOOD Thing
I can name countless times in my life where I missed out on great opportunities because I was unable to step out of my comfort zone. I mean, why chart the daunting, ominous unknown when you can stay warm and stagnant in a comfort-zone? Does staying in your comfort zone really hold you back? Of course not. Something that feels so good could not possibly have any adverse affects, right? Wrong. 

When you're in a new place the worst possible place to be (at least for me) is, in fact, the "comfort-zone". I am some what of a homebody and would rather stay home and watch Gone With the Wind than have a "wild" night, or even any type of night out with friends. Yes, I could technically be classified as introverted but I'm not. This is going to sound weird but I don't get recharged from being alone. I love being around people and laughing and having a good time but the thing that stops me is getting out is the rejection based anxiety that I sometimes have. I get really worried that people are judging me, seeing the flaws & imperfections, and thinking that I am ugly. That is the main thing that holds me back from stepping out of my comfort-zone and talking to people (especially attractive people) but I know it's necessary.

I now make a conscious effort to speak to new people that I meet.